To who it may concern...

     Today, I woke up, puked, went to the barn and rode my horse, came home home then left and walked around for about 2 hours by myself. In the beginning of the day it was not suppose to go like that. I was suppose to see my friend, and boyfriend. In the end though, my friend blew me off and my boyfriend was busy. If that didn’t make me feel pretty worthless, I get home and my mom said I didn’t clean the house good enough. If only I could do something right in someone’s eyes.
     Don’t get me wrong here, I love my family and friends, but sometimes they put you down when you really wish someone would lift you up. I know that things could be a lot worse, and are a lot worse for some people, but I really wish that someone would see me struggling. You should not have to try to be happy, it should just come.
     I feel like I am always treading water, and when it finally gets easier, a wave comes up and forces me under. Like the other day, my grades were good, my boyfriend and I were not fighting, and at home was calm. Then a horse at my barn dies after 2 hours of me walking it to keep it from rolling, my dog was sick, and finals were a few days away.
      Without the downs, would we have ups? Whatever it is I know it will get better. There is always a sunny side to an egg.

Sincerely,

             Emily Smith.